Having young kids is MUCH easier than having a newborn. Lets just get that out there. The sleep deprivation that comes with being a new mum, particularly for the first time, is almost unbearable. For me it induced a pinch of Post Natal Depression and Anxiety. I mean who really can function with 3 hours of broken sleep night after night, week after week? I know I couldn't.
And when you're doing a job as important as raising a human- all bets are off. There is nothing you want to be better at. I wanted to smash the mothering gig. I wanted to be present, engaged, motivated and look hot when pushing my pram to the park.
Instead I was sleep deprived, depressed, jittery and chubby. A pretty grim reality, don't you think?
I couldn't function. There were days where I would call day in tears just moments after he's walked out the door confessing that I just couldn't cope.
By the time we'd had our 3rd baby, he knew to take my crazy seriously. Things were out of control for me and on occasion packing the lunch boxes would literally tip me right over the edge. It seems ridiculous to confess but there really were days where I just couldn't figure out how to find the jam in the pantry.
These days life is so much easier.
Little Elk is now 2 and sleep is far less elusive than it used be. Having said that, we're often up several times a night (it was six last night, as I mentioned on Facebook earlier today) and most mornings, we awake to find a child between us.
I'm still not getting the amount sleep I need but I AM getting enough sleep to stay sane most of the time.* Okay okay, lets not get too ambitious - SOME of the time.
What about you? Are you getting enough sleep? Do you feel like it effects your mental health? How do you cope?
* PMT time- all bets are OFF! c.r.a.z.y