By Emily Beetleshack
Seriously, I feel so grown up... except none of my undies are very comfortable. Why this has only just become apparent, I'm not sure but it is a problem that vexes me. They are either too loose or crack creeping. I can't decide which is worse.*
For me, the very best thing about going to work is leaving the house. You know, actually walking out the front gates ALONE and pulling them closed behind me before walking down the street ALONE to collect my car. It's liberating.
I feel like I'm 17 (with wrinkles and 20 extra kg's). Perhaps this is enhanced further by the fact that I'm currently driving a 1999 Corolla sans hub caps and electric windows. I do believe it has a tape deck.
After 6 years of being at home, I'd developed a little anxiety about life outside of the front gates, so seldom did I venture through them as an independent person.
It's like you're invisible when you're a mum with young kids. Don't you think?
I know I was invisible to myself- existing purely to care for my children. I've gained weight, grown a beard and let the elastic perish in my smalls. I'm a stranger to myself.
Yet somehow I find myself starting again. I truly never thought it would happen. In the thick of my stay at home parenting years, I couldn't fathom working outside the white picked fences of our home. Sometimes my desire to escape them was so strong I would find myself running in my dreams yet at other times, contentment found me sitting on week-bix covered floors reading stories and playing make believe.
Both are real. Both are valid and both have their day in the sun.
I can't say I'm sad to be returning to work. Conversely, I'm stoked. I feel like the air is fresher and the ocean saltier. The breeze is crisp and for some reason, my children are more beautiful than they have ever been before.
Having some distance has provided me with a lush new perspective - now I can see the sparkle in my children's eyes. I'm invigorated and so ready for this new chapter.
How about you. Do you work outside of the home for real cash money? Why? Why not? Do you want to?
*Note to self; buy new undies (suggestions for very comfortable undies welcome)