Sunday, May 18, 2014

While I've Been Slumping




There are so many delightful things about being a parent when one takes the time to notice them. Warm cuddles, endless I love you's and countless brightly coloured art works to hang on the fridge. Kids love with complete abandon. They haven't yet learnt to withhold emotion, personal space means nothing to them and a deep intrinsic generosity flows freely through everything they do. They'll share their wee, their poo, their snot and their half eaten banana without a second thought.

I've had my head down a bit too much lately - I've been overwhelmed and anxious more than I've been calm and serene.* I've been shouty and focused on survival more than I've been a keen, engaged, selfless mother and as a result, I've wasted a few months in a bad mood.

At last, something has shifted (I've weaned Elke and I'd credit that, just quietly) and I can see though that heavy fog that was upon me. With my face cast upwards I can take a good look what's been there all along, patiently waiting for me. While I've been slumping, everyone else has been making eye contact, singing gleeful tunes and sharing giggles.

It feels good share the joy with my darlings again.



*actually, I don't think I've ever been accused of being serene.

10 comments:

  1. Beautiful post xxx and happy birthday to the littliest lady beetle….too cute for words!

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  2. I can so relate to this. Thanks for sharing!

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  3. It is so freeing not to be needed in that primal way isn't it…enjoy the joy!

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  4. I can share that excitement with you in the next phase of kiddies after breastfeeding. Joy!!! (Though I got pregnant again...Short joy! 10 weeks to go...) Your family is just lovely.

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  5. I think I have been slumping lately too! I had no word for it. But thank you because now I do.

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  6. Please talk to me about how the weaning with Elke went? Liv is now 20 months and I'm ready to wean her, but I don't think she is or ever will be!

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  7. this is a lovely reminder to stop and soak it in, slumping happens all too easily..x

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  8. Aach, weaning. It's impossible. I'm slumping too. Weighed down. It's hard to get out of the funk. I think a bit of refocus is always a good start. I'm glad to hear you are feeling taller and less slumpy. Feels better doesn't it

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  9. Some days / weeks / gasp years it's just such a slog. I'm glad the sunshine is peeking through again. x

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  10. ebbs and flows. Hours in the day. I am much the same but never the zen master I wish I could be.

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Thanks so much for your words of encouragement, advice and solidarity.

xo em