Monday, April 8, 2013
Stepping Into Beautiful Newness
Today, Monday 8th April marks my very last day of total freedom.
Ever since young Zephie weaned at 10 months, I've had one blissful day a week all to myself. For a while, before the Lady Baby was born I went back to work on that sacred day and taught other peoples naughty kids about Art. It wasn't bad - teaching 30 teens is much less taxing that parenting two toddlers.
But for the past year or so- i've had a day each week that is just mine. A day to clean and cook and wash and blog. A day to sleep at lunch time and use the bathroom in peace. A day to think and read and pray and reflect.
A day given to me by my entirely selfless parents who I simply can't (and don't) thank enough.
Things are changing though and after today, my Mondays will be filled with obstetric appointments... at least for the next 3 weeks.... and then they will be filled with blissful newborn chaos.
Today, while the house is quiet and the dinner simmers in the slow cooker i'm taking it all in. Enjoying a final chunk of solitude and preparing myself for what is to come.
I know the next few weeks are going to be hard, there will be tears of this i'm sure. I'm anxious about what it will be like to have 3 humans to care for. Im anxious about what it will be like recovering after a c-section with 3 humans to care for. I'm anxious about having 4 days in hospital with out my kids and i'm anxious about how well i'll manage my hormones or how well they'll manage me. Truth be told, I'm brimming with anxiety but I have Faith and with faith I can move mountains (or maybe mole hills, but you catch the sentiment).
So, here we go.
Beautiful newness, I know you won't disappoint.
*that will contain beautiful difficulties.