Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Freeze Time - The Nowness
Each morning as we rise before the sun, the Autumn air is fresh and crisp while it's breeze rustles the leaves of the camellia that's in bloom right outside our bedroom window, but not so much as to disturb the pair of lorikeets that snuggle in it's branches. Inside, there is anticipation on our breath, it's everywhere. In our eyes, our hearts, our words and our steps. The children ask me if the baby is coming yet, has it grown? Is it moving? Maybe it's a baby possum, or a puppy? Maybe it's a baby boy or a baby girl?
There is so much to discover, so much to learn and uncover in the coming weeks. Everything will be new again. New life.
A brand new human being that has never felt the prickle of cool air on pink skin or experienced a belly full of warm milk. Never taken a breath or cried a single tear. But it's coming, little human - soon.
For now though, I'm savouring every moment while it's just the four of us.
We have a young man who is maturing right before our very eyes. He is gentle and kind and thoughtful and I know he will truly thrive with the responsibility of being the biggest brother. He can change a nappy and dress himself. He can sit still for significant periods of time (major achievement) and with a little training, he will find pleasure in NOT verbalising every single thought that runs through his active mind. He makes Dave and I abundantly proud - once he is all tucked up in bed we discuss his hilarious antics and inquiring mind long after slumber has enveloped him.
Little Pippi is the most delicious 'terrible two' imaginable. Her attempts at tantrums are predictable and tame at best. A fun loving nature and an insatiable urge to be just like her big brother guide her through the days- that and the need to change her clothing every twenty minutes. Boys clothes only, thanks. She lavishes kisses on my tummy and snuggles in for the longest time when she wakes from her day time nap. For her, being a sister is a completely new role and one that she will have to warm to. I can hear myself saying 'gentle hands' and know we will have to guide her as she discovers what it means to share the attention and affection of her parents. She will thrive and blossom and grow with each day and every new opportunity. She will love this little sibling as much as she loves her big one and she will find her place as the kid in the middle, knowing that she is cherished as much as the others.
Then there is Dave, that dinner cooking, laundry washing, chicken farming, vegetable growing, garden tending, child raising, bread baking husband of mine. He is quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to anger. He is patient beyond all measure (except at 4am, then he's just plain g.r.u.m.p.y.) and cares for his family in the most practical of ways. He lives an inspiring kind of selflessness and one day, when the babies are raised and grown, I'll pay him back with endless long surfs, unlimited hours in the garden and maybe, just maybe i'll get a job and earn some money or something.
Together the four of us are a family. In a week or two, our family of four will become a family of five. We'll be good at being five- it will be hard work and there is growing to be done- but five we shall be.
Over the coming days I'll continue to make an effort to pause and be grateful for the abundance of good things in our life right now.
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