Tuesday, March 26, 2013
I CAN AND I WILL
In light of my current exhaustion, sleep depravation, ratty children and general physical discomfort, I'm having to make some choices. Choices about my thoughts and actions.
I'll be honest; when I'm tired and grumpy I have a general default position- to be tired and grumpy*. Snappy and lethargic. Moody and lazy- call it what you will.
This morning when I was awoken by the typical 4:45 'mumma' shout out followed by the 5:30 'let's start this day' summons I found myself uttering curse words under my breath.
The day was difficult. There were tears and tantrums a plenty. Voices were raised and no one was proud of their behaviour, least of all me.
This evening I'm taking a moment to reflect and gather my thoughts. I know life requires balance and that balance is a beautiful thing. But sometimes it's elusive.
Right now, it totally escapes me.
But I still have choices. I still have the power to control my own cognition. So i'm making a choice- a big, fat adult decision to CHOOSE happy. Tired, swollen, uncomfortable and happy.
The kind of happy that comes from sacrifice. The kind of happy that a stay at home parent sometimes has to force themselves to feel.
Lets call it content.
Tomorrow at 4:45 i'm going to let my brain control my emotions.
*beautiful, sexy nesting bug, where have you gone?
In other news, the winner of this giveaway has now been announced- you can see if it was you back here. Also, it's almost time for a new blog header as part of the Artist Series, it's a good one too :)