Thursday, October 11, 2012

Here Now





Last night I lay down with the Young man for a little while to help him unwind after a day filled with socialising, chocolate ice-cream and super market chaos.

We lay there for a while in silence, snuggled up close, my nose pressed to his squishy cheek. I could smell his breath and see his hand wriggling about in front of his face, performing some kind of puppet show only to be interpreted by the grand creator himself.

My mind wandered to the time when he was in my tummy. He was always moving in there. I would lay in the bath of an afternoon (the only place my body found relief from the pressure) and watch him twist and turn, poke and prod. My stomach would involuntarily convulse, making ripples in the water.*

I vividly remember the anticipation I felt while he was growing in-utero, so eager to meet this small human being writhing around my womb. I wondered what he would be like, who he would be.

Three and a half years later, in there here an now, I lay next to him amongst his collection of stuffed toys and very special 'blankies'. Between the flannelette sheets we dwell, watching the puppet show, waiting for sleep to come.


In one brief moment his eyes caught mine. He was smiling.


'Are you happy' I asked
'Yes mum, because you are my best friend'.


In the here and now, tears trickle down my cheeks. Tears of overwhelming joy, amazement and delight. That mysterious mass of wriggling human is here. Right here. I know him now, and he is perfect. And I am his mum.




*I should have known then that he would be a spirited child.



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32 comments:

  1. This is so amazingly sweet Em...what a way with words you have! THis is a beautiful account for your'e young man for his future, i think you should write this as a hard copy in a special journal too. just incase.
    Teary eyes now!

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    1. ooh that boy, he's just so loveable.

      Thanks for your kind words too Saskia, very generous of you.

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  2. First, that picture is gorgeous.
    Second, I love all the beds in your house.
    And third, that is about the sweetest thing I have ever heard...I know you will cherish that moment for years to come.

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  3. that is beautiful, Em. The wonderful things that await me when it is my turn to enter into motherhood, the most important job I will ever have, I am sure. lisa x

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  4. Such a beautiful moment Em x

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  5. Perfection. My son (13 months) runs over and kisses me mid play and then runs back to his toy of the day (normally a box, or a laundry basket). I well up every time. These kids, they know ho to make our heart twang.

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  6. Oh my lord, that's gorgeous :)
    My little man is just starting to say 'Love you' without any prompting!! **Melting Heart!!**

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  7. That is the best Em. Just beautiful. May he always feel that way...I guess that's unrealistic for a man.. But may that special bond be everlasting. x x

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  8. This is amazingly beautiful! Thankyou Em for sharing.

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  9. Zophus is an awesome kid Em. And you are an awesome mum. X

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  10. wow...your words. thank you. think i might go kiss my little ones.

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  11. I welcomed my first bubba 9 days ago. I already miss feeling her & watching her move inside me but i am so excited to finally have her here & to watch her grow into her own little person.

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  12. Absolutely beautiful Em, you could not have captured those feelings or those moments in time better. Lucky little boy and lucky Mama. Gorgeous photo too xo

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  13. Totally totally beautiful. I love the moments with my 2 yr old and 4 yr old when you are close as you can possibly be and in a little love bubble !

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  14. Oh dear, tears happening here. This is so preciously sweet Em. It's a wonderful thing to know you can make your child happy with your love. x Laura

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  15. This made me melt. Here is proof that you are a wonderful mother to your babies xx

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  16. This made me teary-eyes. Such a sweet moments. Little boys are just the best. Can't wait until mine can talk to me too. I hope I'm his best friend!

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  17. beautiful Em. No words. Happy snuggles girl.

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  18. So lovely. What a beautiful post. My son is the same age as yours. As I type he is playing with my hair...i am letting him because it's just lovely. We've taken to having little lie downs after lunch on his bed for stories and cuddles. He starts school in one year and I am greedily making the most of every second with him. xx

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  19. beautiful post! the best part of my day is when i go to take my daughter from the nursery and she runs smiling towards me!i get excited every time!

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  20. "I know him now, and he is perfect" - GULP. SNIFF. I know this feeling! x

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  21. What a beautiful, heartfelt post. Love it! x

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  22. Why don't you try for a book? Each and every word of your post touched the heart deeply...
    nursery wall stickers

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  23. So many of your posts bring tears to my eyes. Thank you Em. Just beautiful x

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Thanks so much for your words of encouragement, advice and solidarity.

xo em