photo's by ubertim
Every day I love my kids, my husband and our life together but some days- like today- I struggle to immerse myself in its excellence.
From the moment I opened my eyes I was yearning to be ALONE. Maybe it was the result of a four day weekend full of family time, surfing, cooking, washing and gardening- all together- all four of us. Maybe it was the tail end of an exhausting cold, maybe its the PMT?
Either way - I spent the day shirking responsibility, avoiding conversation and pressing 'watch program' on iview over and over. When that failed to work, I bundled the children into the car and drove them around (and around and around), when they tried to chatter I turned up the radio.
Neither my head nor my heart were in it today and it felt rotten.
So when the afternoon turned crisp again and Dave walked in the door from a full days work I prepared myself for a speedy exit. With little more than a high five on passing he took over .
I needed a moment to gather my thoughts and catch my breath. To prayerfully remember that I am the one that sets the mood in this home - together with Dave, I need to teach these little people how valuable, important, intelligent and interesting they are. iview can't do that.
I need to do it - and do it well.