Tuesday, March 27, 2012

I Hold My Breath


The end of each day here at The Beetle Shack, is marked by that magical moment in which Dave and I open the flimsy hollow core doors into our children's bedrooms and kiss them good night. As we slowly twist the handle, hoping that it won't creak and disturb their slumber, I hold my breath and wait to hear the deep rhythm of theirs. 

 I creep up to their beds, breathing them in as I do*. Taking a long moment to look them over in their entirety, from their lashes to the tips of their toes. I scan their wonderfully tiny bodies before resting my eyes on their mysterious faces. 

 I've know them for such a short time, their whole lives but only a moment in mine.

 Yet it feels like an eternity that I've been kissing them goodnight. 


* dave just read this and suggested it was 'creepy' that i would breathe them in. Sorry to freak you out peeps.


31 comments:

  1. This makes me smile.

    I've just done the same in my household. It's precious.

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  2. Beautiful Em. I do the same not creepy at all. x

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  3. I breathe them in. I totally get it. If you're creepy, I am creepy.

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  4. I'm not a parent yet, but I don't think it's creepy. I get it.

    Jade x

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  5. I love - LOVE - looking in on my babies before I go to bed. I cannot switch myself off for the night without knowing they are content. Even when they're sleeping at their grandma's house I mentally do it. Sometimes I just stand there and watch them sleeping. Sometimes I cry with the beauty of it all. We'll be creepy together.

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  6. tell dave it's a mama club thing x

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  7. I'm a creep too!!! Love this post mama Em. x

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  8. Oh I breathe the small peeps in too! We can be creeps together.

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  9. I LOVE it when you write stuff like this. So insightful and real but not soppy. Gorgeous pics. I've lost with the door creak so many times recently. There's a wonky floorboard right there as I step out. xxx

    ps. i always look at her sleeping face and feel guilty for any

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  10. I creep too. Around 10:30pm. It's magical.

    xx

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  11. More beautiful than creepy I'd say! I get sad putting Fletch down to bed each night - end of the day's cuddles. They're such heavenly kids those little ones x

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  12. I know what you mean - it feels like I've known our boys forever.
    Beautiful photos of your sleeping angels.
    Ronnie xo

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  13. Not creepy in the slightest you beautiful Mama, you. I do the same, for day naps AND night time slumber. I love it and I believe it is one of the perks of being a parent... that you can breathe in those little treasures and know that they are all YOURS. A beautiful post and gorgeous pics of your sleeping beauties xoxo

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  14. I love watching my son sleep. Beautiful photos x

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  15. I still do it even for the 13 year olds. The little ones though are mesmerising. Over the years I have wasted a lot of time just sitting in a chair,watching my babies sleep- and in fact not one minute of it WAS wasted. In fact a few days ago I wrote a similar post about breathing in the nook of her neck as she slept. It is pure life .

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  16. Ah, glorious sleep. Indeed I love the peace in my little ones face and 'breathing her in' but mostly I love the mama peace when she sleeps! Your cherubs are scrumptious;) x ashley

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  17. Breathing in the silence is also good for the soul! It is grand sweeping your eyes over them as the sleep though, they're such a blur when they're awake you only catch glimpses x

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  18. how could he not get the breathe them in bit. it *must* be a mama thing! i do it when mine are awake even! they give me cuddles, i breathe in their sweetness. even my 12 year old...but i secretly think she thinks i'm a freak when i do it...but i don't care!! your babes are delish x

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  19. I don't find it creepy either, not even when someone else breathes in my newborn and comments on that new baby smell. I love peeking on my toddler when he sleeps. The disarray of limbs and blankets, I don't know how he can look so awkward and so comfortable. :)

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  20. Haha Em. Lovely, not creepy. I like to take a big whiff of my cherubs numerous times throughout the day. Oli is starting to think I'm a tad weird though... xx

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  21. Amen - bestest part of the day, that and when my girl grabs my face - little hands on each cheek and gives me a big smooch goodnight. Hope you kicked your heels up at this fancy do you were attending tonight

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  22. Beautiful. We all get you lady. Kellie xx

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  23. all moms do this (breath their kids in) my boy smells like puppy most of the time and my girl is always sweet like suger - my husband even noticed!! a lovely sad happy time in our house too - luckily we dont have a door in that room ;-)

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  24. Not creepy at all! I think I know exactly what you mean. My hubby always tells me not to linger kissing my babies goodnight... but I can't help myself but stand there watching and listening to the rhythm of their breathing, blowing them kisses and landing soft kisses on their cheeks and hands. Sometimes the day is so hectic, and in this goodnight I can sit with them when pure calm and love are all that I'm feeling. I hope that makes sense. I think maybe we're thinking the same thing. Whatever it is, I think it's beautiful. Elisa xx

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  25. this is not creepy! I love it. I often fall asleep next to my little guy as he needs me to cuddle him to fall asleep every night. I love the sneaky kiss before I turn in. x

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  26. Not at all creepy, just gorgeous. I too adore that time of day!

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  27. You magical moment touched my heart; especially when I was thinking of the recent shooting. I was Googling for a picture to go with the quote of H. Jackson Brown Jr. on kissing children goodnight when I chanced upon your beautiful post. Pardon me that I have used a photo of yours in my Facebook page 'Symphony of Love' at: www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=570642576296093&set=a.230592023634485.80826.188411217852566&type=1&theater&notif_t=like. Please let me know if you do not like the use of it and I will remove it immediately. Thank you and sorry for any inconvenience caused.

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Thanks so much for your words of encouragement, advice and solidarity.

xo em