Yesterday we went on an adventure, a big adventure to select a back pack, drink bottle and snacks for my little baby boy. He needed them, given that he started Pre School today.
Dave and I have been talking about sending him for a little while now, it's been a massive decision and one that we have not taken lightly. I have read in a number of places that it's not benefical for boys to start day care until after they are 3 and I had always thought that I would stick to that. But Zephs growing love of play group and consistent questioning of when he will start Pre School finially gave us the shove we needed to enrol him.
The thought of Zephie being taught by someone other than Dave, myself or our parents is one that has taken time to warm to. Finally, I have come to a place of peace and believe it will be beneficial not only for the Young Man but also for Pippi and I.
So, I went about packing him a nutritious lunch. As I buttered the bread, applied a layer of jam and squeezed fresh orange juice for him I was overcome with emotion. With tears in my eyes I remembered that little boy, just born. Teeny tiny- changing my world. I thought, take heed Emily, don't wish your time away. Babies are only little for a while. They muddle their words, talk about balls, jump into cuddles and splash in puddles for SUCH a short time. A short, magical time.
I sit here now, again with tears in my eyes and I know I am blessed to be a mother. Today was just one of those days that I will remember forever. His first day. The first of many.
He grows up, I stay the same.
I love him for ever.