Friday, October 28, 2011

A Big Decision

 Yesterday we went on an adventure, a big adventure to select a back pack, drink bottle and snacks for my little baby boy. He needed them, given that he started Pre School today.

Dave and I have been talking about sending him for a little while now, it's been a massive decision and one that we have not taken lightly. I have read in a number of places that it's not benefical for boys to start day care until after they are 3 and I had always thought that I would stick to that. But Zephs growing love of play group and consistent questioning of when he will start Pre School finially gave us the shove we needed to enrol him.

 The thought of Zephie being taught by someone other than Dave, myself or our parents is one that has taken time to warm to. Finally, I have come to a place of peace and believe it will be beneficial not only for the Young Man but also for Pippi and I.







So, I went about packing him a nutritious lunch. As I buttered the bread, applied a layer of jam and squeezed fresh orange juice for him I was overcome with emotion. With tears in my eyes I remembered that little boy, just born. Teeny tiny- changing my world. I thought, take heed Emily, don't wish your time away. Babies are only little for a while. They muddle their words, talk about balls, jump into cuddles and splash in puddles for SUCH a short time. A short, magical time. 




 I sit here now, again with tears in my eyes and I know I am blessed to be a mother. Today was just one of those days that I will remember forever. His first day. The first of many.

 He grows up, I stay the same.
 I love him for ever.


22 comments:

  1. oh emily, how very very true, every word. my daughter started kindy this year, she just turned 4 last month, and it seems like yesterday she was 'teeny-tiny'. young man will blossom, and it's beautiful and heartbreaking to watch, all at the same time as they learn more and more to survive without us.. this mothering gig is tough sometimes, lucky I still have 2 more to send off to kindy yet :)

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  2. You write so beautifully em! I look forward to hearing of what a fun time he had! Jx

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  3. Oh gosh, I am nervous! We have enrolled Ronan to start in Jan next year. He will be 2 and 3 months....young eh? I have also read in 'Raising Boys' about the age 3 thing and it's hard, because you always want the best for your family. The truth is, he knows you love him, he knows you come back every afternoon to collect him, he can socialise, play, discover and you will all benefit. Where is he going? xx

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  4. We farewelled our oldest who moved to Brisbane last week and I still think of him as my teeny tiny baby. They will always be our babies no matter what and as hard as it is to let them spread their wings, it's what we do :)
    Just think about all the growing he will do in this new chapter of his life :)

    x

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  5. You've brought tears to my eyes - with you and for you. Well done on seeing the growth in Zephie and allowing him, trusting him.
    That last photo captures so much, simply beautiful.

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  6. Those father & son photos are just beautiful! Honestly.

    I read the same book, because ... I remember wondering in the early days with Max, what on earth do I do with a boy?!

    It was a great read.

    I agreed with so much, especially how he said the best thing you can do is hold them back if they're not school ready by grade prep. I got a lot out of that chapter.

    As for the 'when to start pre school' thing. You're right. It is SUCH a huge decision.

    It sounds like you guys went with a combination of heart, instinct & your little man telling you in his own way that he's ready.

    I guess as parents, that's all we can do :)

    Good luck! xx

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  7. Ugh.. I know exactly how you feel; so many of us do, you'll find. This society of Mothers, of women who didn't know what love was until they met their children.

    Spence is going to be one in a little over a week. I am not ready... but I'm glad you were. x

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  8. Oh Em, i have tears in my eyes, reminds me of Riley's first day earlier this year. Its good for them, but still breaks my heart leaving him {and he only goes for half a day!}
    Have a nice weekend lady. xx

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  9. So sweet! I love all their 'firsts'....so amazing watching them literally transform from babies to small people! x

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  10. I am so happy! I don't know why but I had never been able to find your blog before so I googled you (slight stalker moment I know) and found it! Hooray. It's lovely. I'm pressing "follow" right away.

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  11. Being a mother is the best thing ever- but it can be SO HARD!

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  12. You actually got me emotional with this. So true, what you said. It reminds me of that ABBA song... schoolbag in hand..she leaves home in the early morning... It's such a blessing to be a mom.

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  13. gah! i seem to have leaky eyes. my one's not even born yet and i'm anxious of this letting go day. beautiful post & images again x

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  14. oh what a lovely post :) This took me back to when the boys started pre school. It is so hard letting them out in the world but amazing how they blossom xx

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  15. He will have had a ball and it is such a huge benefit for them to take direction from others and learn a new language so as to speak.. your spirited child will flourish and grow in only the best ways I am sure x

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  16. I think we need to take with a grain of salt everything we read, and apply it to our own family in different ways, because every kid is different. I hope he had a great first day! Kellie xx PS I literally just said to claire this morning that the kids change so fast and the hard part for parents is keeping up with it because we are used to things being a bit more static. I love how you put it. 'He grows up, I stay the same.' Lovely.

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  17. Oh, so beautiful! My Madison was 4 when he started 4 year old kinder. I was sad, but so excited for him at the same time. It's such a tricky stage, because they want to be grown up, but still a baby at the same time.

    Oh bless. Love his little backpack. I've got the same brand ones for my lads. They are too cute with their matching little bottles too!

    xx

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  18. I cried just reading this, Em. I'm sure you're doing the absolute best for Zeph and your family. Hope he has a ball there. x

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  19. Oh Emily, I know those tears only too well and boy, do I agree with all that you have said here. A beautiful post and just gorgeous pictures to illustrate. Well done Mama :o) xo

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  20. Oh, Em. Huge moment! I hope you all had a fantastic first day... that lunch looks delicious and healthy and made with love.

    Never doubt yourself, you're amazing and you naturally know what's best for your family.
    xx

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  21. sending the first born, is the hardest, others just follow.. I sent most of mine at least 1 day - from 2.5 years it's so
    good having a break them from you too, refreshed and charged up for the other days.. teary reader..

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Thanks so much for your words of encouragement, advice and solidarity.

xo em